Some very fortunate couples go together like peanut butter and jelly ... and that are the Milligans, Coty and Brooke! They were previously my upstairs neighbors ... 8 months ago, they did elope; but earlier this evening (August 15th), there was the "official", for all our loved ones, wedding in the park <3 ....
Now, the minister said something that made me think - (paraphrasing), he said - y'all got married legally 8 months ago ... and you've had 8 months to live as husband and wife ... are you ready to say I do again now that you know what it's really like???
Happily, they did!
... But it made me think ... and so later on I walked over and chatted with the minister ... I filled him in on how - the last time I was married, circa 1995 -- at 8 months my answer would have been HELL, NO!!! -- we were on the cusp of our first separation .... so, we talked; and then the minister asked me a question --
Jeannee, having that broken marriage to a minister -- what has it done to your faith???
I got all choked-up, as I realized -- as I admitted right out loud -- that my faith is fine, thank you kindly for asking! -- HOWEVER --
I've been unchurched since.
Oh, I've tried! I really REALLY have tried! I've gone to different churches ... for different amounts of time ... one in particular, an overwhelming case of depression-crash caused by improper medication swept me out the door BUT --
-- yeahhh, I probably would have left there soon, too.
I don't trust. I know the inside -- too well. I'm uncomfortable.
I believe, but I don't church.